so, kids are in bed...yes, late tonight....we ran soooo many errands this morning that i guess it just wore them out! so their nap ran way late this afternoon. no biggie, really...i mean, they do great; it's just me who doesn't get to have the evening "off". all in all, it really isn't bad. they like staying up late on occassion. it's just putting them to bed is like a 2 edged-sword! i hear all this "talk" about how bedtime is just supposed to be like, reading a book, and singing a song, and then watching your sweet child fall into dreamland while you're rocking them methodically back and forth in their dimly lit bedroom. haha...good for you....whoever you are "supermom", but in this household, it's like..."isaac! come brush your teeth....noah, pull your pants up!!" "noah, stop drinking water!"; "isaac, you'd better stop playing around and listen to me! it is bedtime!"....so after all that...they are finally in bed...now i'm feeling guilty cause we have to say our prayers and i've so not been a good testimony for them, but i proceed and then i get from both boys..."i gotta go potty!!!" i'm like..."you just WENT potty!!!!" OK!, you'd better push something out or you're gonna be in trouble!!" hurry!!"....haha...(i'm all bark and no bite when it's this late at night!)....anyways....then noah starts crying cause i'm rushing them....isaac starts getting a second wind....ugh...we get them back in bed and say our prayers...then its..."i need another hug and kiss!! (keep in mind, i've already given them 3 or 4 already)....ok, so here's round 5! then its..."i need a drinky!!"....for real!?!
anyways....i could go on and on but i think you get the picture...lol...i mean...yes, i'll chuckle now about it...but man, in those moments i'm just thinking, "GOOOO TOOOO BEDDDD!!!" haha....idk if any of you experience this, but everything i read in the magazines seems to soooo far off from what i experience. maybe it's me, but if i let up for 1 second then it'll be 10pm before they get into bed!!! it's a 2 edged sword for me....
we are going on the 1 month mark for jay being gone! he's doing well. we don't get much time to talk, but he's healthy and enjoying himself! i just want him back here though....i'm glad he's happy. i'm not used to him being gone, but....i just am not constantly thinking about it anymore...so i guess that's a good thing!
ok...i'm off to write to jay a letter and then go to bed!!
Thank you for being so honest, it gives me and I am sure others great comfort to know that their are other moms going through the SAME thing! Sometimes I don't feel like we tell the truths to one another enough, but when we do, like you just did, honestly it feels freeing. Because now I realize I need to just enjoy "what I have", yet, always trying to improve, but enjoying the now...
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